以往，以后

借我一首歌的时间，用来纪念，那不散的青春，以及那回不去的回忆。

也许，自己到了毕业时，也会如此。也会如此的疯狂，青春那颗控制不住的心，被尘封得太久，终究是抵不过时间的。

我们那么甜那么美那么相信那么疯那么热烈的曾经

很多人，一旦分开，也许永远都不再见面。我相信这句话里所包含的无奈与悲哀，那些从单薄的青春里匆匆而过的人，在时间的遗忘中，终究还是被遗忘了。

那时，那些本以为以后可以相见的朋友，现在，却再也没有见到。
不知到了那刻，你是否还记得我？

连一句道别的话都还没来得及说出，就会各赴天涯。
这年，我为我的生活画上一笔。十七岁的青春有了第一次伤感的痕迹。
那些记忆里美丽的花事，将成为我的青春里一段刹那的时光，在我的心里珍藏一辈子，一辈子。

我相信青春的花蕾还在渐次的绽放，成长的路途中，一个路段的风景过去了，往后的风景会更美。

而青春的旅途中，我们无法预料，下一刻会发生什么。

曾今就想好要做一个明媚的少年，一个明媚的孩子，不因过去而悲伤，也不因未来而迷茫。努力做一个幸福的人，面朝大海，春暖花开。

你也要这样。

因为珍惜而甘愿等待，因为不忍失去，而在等待中坚守。

因为害怕而回归现实，因为还留有一丝情意，而守护着还爱着的你。

暮然回首，那人早已不在灯火阑珊处。只见，那华丽的光亮中，破碎了一地的记忆。

茫茫人海，红尘漫漫，有些人注定是我们路途上擦肩的过客

有些人，是像你这种该死的。

我真的好在乎你。

因你的怀抱而温暖。心中甜甜的想念因雨的到来更浓。我能想象得出在雨天里拥抱着你的温暖,浪漫在如丝的细雨里。

如果人世间有一种情深深厚厚，如果人世间有一个人痴痴恋恋，如果人世间有一颗心执执念念。

那一个可等可盼可想可念的就是你。

多想留住时光，多想握紧你的手，多想你就这样一直伴着我。你不要走远，我的心，我的情，将永远伴随着你。

今夜，给我一首歌的时间，让我，悄悄的把你吟唱。

JUST ANOTHER STOP IN MY LIFE

"A good painting to me has always been like a friend. It keeps me company, comforts, and inspires." -Hady Lamarr-

The big Annual Award. Calling All Young Artists for the Malaysia Top 10 Outstanding Young Artist Award 2012. Participate in the art competition in conjunction with the release of Disney-Pixar’s Brave. Had ended.

YES! ENDED!

A month of work, from scratch until the day of the competition. & killed another forest.

First it was getting through the qualification challenge, well it was easy but nervous at the same time. Brainstorming in class, managed to finish it before the due date. Still remember how dreadful I was when begging for the confirmation letter to arrive, waited & waited, waited & waited.... & finally, a letter in my mailbox, God blessed & woohoo! Got through the qualification challenge of designing "BRAVE", I was officially the shortlisted participant of the Young Artists Award. 


Putting aside the confirmation letter, time to kill trees! This year's topic for the On-The-Spot Competition, it's "Design Your Own Brave Local Hero" . My heart stopped pumping for a sec, the next sec I jumped ten meters high, rolled on my bed, & screamed silent. Designing character? Am I super lucky or what!

The first thing I thought of was Li***ing, but then I go for originality instead, don't want them to call me a copycat now... plus I really don't wanna draw a local inspired L****ning. Brainstorming inspirations again, accumulated stress & missing love ones.
Mom, oh mummy! You are the best in the world! I love you so much! Planning, discussing, providing, arguing, helping, understanding, supporting, encouraging, pushing me till the max, gave me appropriate pressure, brainstorming with me, doesn't give up on me, & most importantly, believing in me. You were always by my side, helping me fight through barriers, hear my complains & wiping my tears.

1 July 2012. The Big Day.
Luckily I still can sleep the day before, flung over my Copic bag & off we go, we I meant: Papa & Mama.
On the way: Nervous, sweated hands, desperately searching similar age participants.
In the Waiting hall: Extremely shocked (600 participants!)

Yup. Waiting.

Taking my certificate of participation

 10 minutes before competition: Cursing, can't wait for competition to start

imagine a flood of 600 people

Competition: -

Everyone is a young artist.

 10 seconds before competition ends: Cursing at the tip of muah tongue
Competition ended: Toilet....

 I had never experienced these feelings before until that day.
Prize Presentation Ceremony: F-ing nervous, F-ing desperate, F-ing wanting to snatch the Gold Award & flee.
Announcing names: Nearly dead due to heart attack, reversed blood flow, drastic mood change, mental disorder, FATALITY. Don't call my name, don't call my name, don't call my name, maybe you can call my name, maybe you can call my name, don't call my name, maybe you can call my name, oh please God, come on, come on... OH.

It's my name, at that single second I have never heard of my name being announced so brightly, music to my ears. Mixture of trembling legs with ups & downs, went up the stage & put an end to this.

7 young artists!

Group shot~

Mom, this is for you~ <3

Mother & daughter <3

A shot with Tatsun Hoi & family

 Check it out !
Malaysia Top 10 Outstanding Young Artists Award 2012
http://www.top10.toa.edu.my/winner_list.html

Can you spot me?

SATURDAY NIGHT

2nd June

Me & you, went shopping together. But sadly, not alone though, mom, bro & a younger cousin tagged along. First thing in mind- ditch them!

 But I'm not very good at ditching people so it was unsuccessful. But good thing was, mom & bro went to the food corner & we were allowed to shop together~

 It was quite an old shopping complex, & most of the stalls had closed down, if you went deep enough, its like an abandon building. Somehow gave me the creeps.

& so, I brought you to an accessories shop, remembered how I wanted to have my own accessories shop? We found Fang's earrings & Vanille's bracelets. We had fun in the accessories shop too, constantly lifting up your red shirt to see how slim your waist is, sorry, bad habit of mine.

Then, something came up which  I can't remember what was that so I left & I told you to wait there. Running across the empty shopping complex, I went to the food corner to meet with my mom, I sit there, an inaudible dialogue between me & mom, I left & ran across the shopping complex again.

I couldn't find you.

The scene changed to a forest, it's in the evening, tall brick walls surrounded on my left while trees were on my right. There was only one road, I followed the trail. On the way, there was a treasure chest, I opened it & found a crest, I took the crest & continued moving forward.

It's a dead end. A huge wall was blocking, there was no other way except heading back. At the last minute, a dented shape was seen few meters up the wall. I climbed up the wall, took the crest out & inserted it into the wall. Seconds later, the whole wall collapsed, gushing out a tsunami & I was washed away.

I was washed into a church. it was dark, the only light was the reflections of a thousand dim candles on the chandelier. There was stairs, a thousand steps, covered with dark red carpets. At the top of the stairs, a gold altar & a church organ playing Vampire Knight, no one was playing it.

There, awake.
Details are for next time.
Some random dream.
This is a very creepy dream...

>PE<  

I HAD SURVIVED...

I know I shouldn't blame you but...
I'M INFECTED BY YOU! BROTHER DEAR!

There goes my wonderful holiday, baking camp, friends & alone time with my dearest. & why is that? It's because I'm infected by my contagious brother that had a disease called mouth, hand & foot disease.

Well, shouldn't blame him too much, he didn't want to get infected too. & so I thought I have a strong enough immune system, proving me wrong, I fell sick.

First, you will feel cold, chilling in your bones under your skin, blurry vision & intense headache. & when all those add up together, you can't even stand on your feet & you feel like a sucker. Now you are officially a sick person, you have to get help, take leave, swallow your pills & curl up in your bed. Plus you can't get contact with anyone! ANYONE!

At this stage, keep your meds near you, do not even try to go out & have fun, because eventually you'll get another virus's attack & being forced to sent home. You will get fever for a couple of days, get tough & surpass this, as there will be another wave of suffering coming up next.

Okay, you are free from fever now, make sure you drink lots of water, appreciate that you can even swallow your own saliva because you can't even talk later. Okay, I'm exaggerating... white spots will appear at the wall of your throat, those white spots are ulcers. When you are drinking- it feels like you are swallowing knifes, when you are eating- it feels like you are applying salt on your ulcers, when you are eating solids- it feels like you are using salt to scratch your ulcers. Whats even worst? you told your mom how bad your condition was but she say that you are just weak & can't stand the pain.

You will fear the power of itchiness! Yes, you will spend the whole day scratching your feet & palms. The more you scratch, the more itchiness you'll feel. Adults told you not to scratch? No use! You'll scratch anyway! Itchiness can make you insane, believe that. The next day, you will find cute little red spots crawling on your skin~ sobs, I'm going to cry now.You will have to struggle with all these hideous red spots. Good luck.

& a lil update, get ready for skin-peel session!

Well, that's all of the symptoms you can get, remember, if you got infected by sickness of any kind, please be considerate by staying at home & avoid interacting with others, because you can cause sufferings to people, & people will curse you...

Okay well, hope I'll get immunity or stronger antibodies after this. If any one who interacted with me & had got sick, I'm truly sorry & hope for your fast recovery.

THANK YOU and sorry at the same time for those who cared & worried about me, parents, friends & my private doc <3 love all of ya! muacks~!

FRIDAY NIGHT

1st June

I was sitting in a car, drove by my mom, probably? We are on a road, dark green pine trees at the side, on our way to a certain place. There was this white cement gate on the left, there, in a middle of the road, a girl with long hair tied up in a ponytail, wearing a butler uniform- long white sleeve buttoned up shirt, black vest & long sleek pants, she was holding a phone, sms-ing I guess. But what was she doing sms-ing in the middle of a road in a butler uniform? That was what I am thinking back then.

something like this but it's long sleeve.

 Ignoring the girl, we went in the gate, young people dress in uniforms indicate they were students, sitting in gondolas by the road side. Along the road, the same pine trees were still there, brick-white Roman-style buildings, naked baby angels everywhere. Students with the same uniform strolling around, that means I am in a school then? A luxurious academy?

angel academy?

similar uniforms~~

 The scene changes, still in the academy, I was dropped off at somewhere, a hallway, then my mom said bye & drove off. Now... what am I doing here? I stood there, looking out from the window, clueless.

Ah, here comes Joey, to my surprise, she was wearing the same butler uniform as the girl I first saw.

" Yui, Yui!" Oh...Joey always yell like that when she need something. " We need your help!" What help?

& the next thing I remember was... I was in a butler uniform.

" Hey, Yui! There's another order!" " Yui! Take these to table 6!" " Yui! Get that customer over there!" " Yui...!"

...& I was serving customers.

Thanks to Joey's explanation which God knows when she explained to me, I was in a academy where a cultural festival was going on, & she was the one in charge of a club that decided on having a butler cafe. Her male butlers bailed on her so she was now searching for anyone who could take up these replacements. So, she was finding victims.

& I happened to be one of her victims, forced to wear sleek pants that I don't usually fond of, my hair was tied into a bun, white sleeves folded halfway & a pair of boots. I am not sure if I look handsome in those but totally got annoyed because I even had to bind my chest. Is this cosplaying?

handsome eh?

Then, you came.
Standing at the front door, you were wearing a flapped coat, like Gil Ra Im in Secret Garden, you put down your slightly brown hair, & I remembered you have a frown on your face, near the eyebrows.

Immediately, I rushed to hug you, probably having the thought of you were my savior that can get me out of this place. You won't know how happy I was to get to see you there. You saved me from those crazy female student's fan girl squeals & moe eyes. Uggh...

You were still frowning, you knew how scary it is to have you being angry, so I tried to ask you what's the matter, but the next thing you did was pulling me out of the cafe, leaving disappointments on all of those female student's face.

Then, I'm awake.
Details are for next time.
Wondering if you've recovered?
& sorry Joey, for bailing in the dream...

>PE<

AFTER THE EXAM

Exam's over! But time flies, I'm sure in a blink of an eye, another exam will be around the corner. Well, it's the reality, right?

Exam, are you studying for education? Or are you studying for knowledge? Listen here folks, education and knowledge ain't the same thing, y'know?

Education, in the past exam, many examples came across. People that cramp before the night, people who stayed up late, & people who set their alarms in the midnight to wake their ass up and munching dictionaries. -No Offense-. Cramp study, I've done that too, pretty much. Stayed up late, much impressed. Wake up in the midnight, greatly impressed. I really am wondering, doesn't that make you tired and less concentration in your papers? & so the marks were given, proving me wrong, they got the highest marks, greatly deeply marvelously impressed. They have extremely huge brain storage, able to sustain heavy eye bags & I call them god. Why do we need education? For a cert, a qualification,  for that piece of paper, a stepping stone for higher education, a man-made satisfaction. & yes, manage to get a good grip, you'll overtake pressure, if not, pressure overtakes you. But nowadays, people buys certs, what is the use of education now? While some places we can often see teachers feeding their students, so full they'll just spit it all out when it's exam. -Still, No Offense-

Knowledge, it's everywhere, down the street, across the road, under a roof, back in the alley... Knowledge is the basis in living, accumulating experience, what mom nags in our daily lives. It is said that our ancestors who discover mines & building castles, hunting wild boars have much more knowledge than the townspeople. They observe, discover, learn, understand, practice, teach. While people nowadays, left ear in, right ear out, wonderful and peaceful life, end of story. -Really, No Offense-

I might not be the one who bring home the A's, but I still have the right to voice out right?  Imagine how the future will be, memorizing the yellow page. Awesome disciplined people like overseas, lecturers there doesn't feed their students with upcoming exam tips, or according by chapters. They teach them how to study by our own, how to learn and observe.

The dreadful SPM year had arrived, god bless & good luck to all my friends surrounded by pressure, indecisive future lives & insomnia.

>PE<